Life Ponderings

Spending some time resting now, it snowed last night. I think it was still snowing this afternoon too. I went on a walk at West River Drive to enjoy the outdoor sunshine and snow fall. Plus a trip to Target, that place always wears me out!

So I made some cloth napkins today. They are a fun project. When I spent the couple odd bucks on the material, I thought, what a great deal on napkins! Then I added up the hours spent thus far making them...close to 5 hours, and I am still not finished. These projects are what keep me at home, being a home maker. I enjoy doing things like making my own napkins, or baby wipes, or blankets, etc. It is a blessing. I never thought my life would be like this.

In some ways I feel so overwhelmingly blessed that I can actually spend my "working hours" keep our home and making it a welcoming, comfortable place. There are still times I think, what really is the point of all this? I am not saving a kids from a horrible home or teaching a child invaluable knowledge to later get a job and succeed in life, or even serving coffee to thirsty souls at McDonald's.

Life can be simple. I like life to be simple. When it gets too complicated or I try and make it complicated, then I forget what God wanted me to be doing in the first place.

Over the past year and a quarter, my life has been simple. My job has been to serve my husband in any way I could find and invest in a few people God placed in my life. This scaling down of life has proven beneficial me, as it has helped me to lay out my priorities. Who is God calling me to invest in? What type of life does he want me to have? What does he have in mind for my future? How can I prepare for that now? And in attempting to answer some of these questions, God has revealed himself to me in new ways.

I am the type of person who loves relationships and relating. Hey, I was as social worker you know! It brings me great joy to figure people out. With Hubie and I, my normal ways of processing relationships just didn't work. God has had to humble me tremendously so that he could show me, through Hubie, who He is making me to be. For me, it has taken a total simplification of life before God could get to some of the places I had been hiding from him.

I guess this is what some people call "settling down."

Now we are expecting a baby in June. What does life look like now? How do I continue to serve Hubie, have friends and take care of a little one? or two or three or four...who knows? It seems that God knew I would be in this place all along. He spoke certain things too me during this season that are stuck on my heart. Praise Him who knows all things! I have no clue what life will look like come June, but I have a lot of hope that life is just going to get better. God isn't done with me yet:).

I know I haven't written like this for some time...it feels good to get my thoughts out in the open sometimes.

I haven't felt the baby move inside me yet. But I the sense that he or she is in there. I am preparing! It is a lot of work, and fun too. Hopefully my big project, a baby quilt will get done in time! My first quilt was a baby quilt for baby Taylor Hall. Hopefully my little one will like the blanket as much as she did! I heard she wore the thing out.